IT'S TIME FOR AFRICA!

world cup 2010 has officially begun kids! football's lovers, this is your time!



it seemed only yesterday i stayed up late watching the world cup with my dad and i cant believe it was 8 years ago! France won world cup 2002 and Zidane was my dad's hero. and 4 years ago, i still remember i put the match schedule behind my bedroom door. pretending to sleep when in fact im watching the game so my mom wont be angry :p and now here i am waiting for the next match, england vs united for world cup 2010. time was so fast as fast as 2 x 45 minutes on the field.

8 years ago was my first world cup. i was 12. and my first favorite team is France while Sis was a royal supporter of Italy. i think she fell for Del Piero and Totti (sorry for mis-spell) and me, i love France because my dad said so. the three of us, me, dad, and sis, were a good fans of world cup which means we only watch the game when the world cup is on hehe. 4 years ago, me and sis watched it without dad, so im not really into France anymore, im sorry daddy, but the zidane's heatbutt tragedy really broke my heart. and here we go, now i vote for Spain and England and a little whisper for Brazil. why are they? haha im sure you must already know. but let me be clear, here's my reasons..

casillas,spain

beckham,england

kaka,brazil

my three brightest stars on the field. i'm sure almost every girl on the planet watching a football game for them. a very girly and silly reasons but could make me be a part of the biggest football party in the world. but whatever you reasons, happy world cup, happy watching, happy screaming, i hope your team wins but im pretty sure this year is my teams year. so get ready to be sad :p enjoy world cup, its time for africaaaaaa!!!!!

cant buy me love

these are the photos that I took last December in Batukaras. for the first time I used a black-and-white film in an analog camera.first I think these photos will fail because I opened the back of the camera several times since its installation doesn't quite fit. but the result turns out to be very good.















pretty good isnt it? using an analog camera is not as easy and as cheap digital cameras, but the result is far more satisfying than a digital camera. the result is more "talking" and "has a soul" and myself are very interested, I really cant wait to buy another roll, go somewhere and taking pictures and write something about it. Other photos can be viewed on my facebook account.

random thoughts

together doesnt mean you have someone. having someone doesnt mean a happy life.



sometimes when you feel bored and wasted, you just want to be alone. but not that simple. you're hoping for someone behind the trees,pays attention to you,take care of you.but you, your self, not paying your attention to him, to what he had done to you, you're too busy playing with your feeling of bored and wasted.


something that hurts now will bring happiness in the future ..

HEARING GOODNESS II

it took long enough to bring me back to the show and Hearing Goodness has made me, you know like some one of a kind show, and people are dying to be part of it. part of something they called "oh yes i was there!" from like almost everyone.



The Jugular has stolen my heart at the first sight. as an opening,they're really awesomeness. that night they played as Arctics Monkeys. but one that is very fascinating for me personally was when they sang Unfinished Business from White Lies. i cant help my self singing along with them really! Next, we've got Winter Issues that hypnotized everyone with Alma Matters from Moz. They came all the way from the capital together with Beverages who continued running the show. Beverages invites us to party with Oasis. They dressed and acted like The Gallagher's Brothers which a little 'interesting'. but overall,their performance cool enough to sway everyone. Blur's lovers will be glad because we've got Cuddle Pop up next. such burning passion that night, Cuddle Pop brings everyone to the front.head bagging to the rhythm and everyone was singing along.

this is what we're waiting for, Kameramen, as JoyDivision, put everyone under their spell. everybody singing, everybody dancing, and i was the part of the crowd that night! everybody dance to the radio until love tears us apart! Some people said that Kameramen a little sounds like The Porno, post-punk band from Jakarta, but from my glasses that night, although they breath at the same air, they have a different lung. and it really makes me lost control!

not only just that. we still have LDS who also screaming for love will tears us apart but with a very different style. i mean it. besides the female vocals, LDS changed the "gloomy" side into something more colorful and more party! everyone grabs your beer! next, a little cooling performed by Ansaphone. they gave a little touch of shoegaze that night. Jack and Four Man,with a female guitarist, re-burn the crowd with The Libertines.although it was late,everyone doesnt run out of enthusiasm to keep singing along until The Big Bright Yellow Sun end that night.

If you were there, you know exactly what I mean. If you weren’t, hopefully this will give a little indication of what you missed. Nights like this underline, and reinvest in, the perennial glory of rock. – a great gig.

email for dad

hi,dad!

i need a little help from you. god, i really wish you were here right now. talking to you and look you in your eyes, daddy im in doubt.
i cant see with my own eyes. everything looks wrong. everything i do, everything i say, everything is wrong for everyone. repeatedly i say that this is something that honestly from my heart,and this is right, but no one supported me. so please help me to see, what i miss? what is wrong with me?
dad, you surely know, what im living right now is my choice. and i dont want to have to choose again. please daddy, tell me, what i'd choose right now is the right one. tell me, that all of this is worth to keep, worth to fight. because i'd lost you,the best man i ever knew,and now im this close to find my own best and i cant stand for losing him. pray for me dad. you know i need you more than ever.


yours

TIRTO'S DAY OUT

yesterday, i decided to skip my class and off to work with tirto.

throughout the day, mostly i just sat and waited.i try my best no to bother him and his friends.they talk about woods and sizes. i dont understand at all.so i just stare and look around and smile and hope my smile can help him stay motivated :p
then after the woods-thingy are done, we went to the worker's house.it was late at night and its freezing to death.this is my first time went with him to work so my minds was on the blanket at home already and wondering when all this thing will finish...but all those feelings disappeared when I saw that he describes with great detail about his work to the worker.he's very smart and very good at his job.esp at his age.it makes me very proud of him.so im now crossing my fingers,hoping he'll succeed at whatever he does so that he could make me more proud than now.deep inside my selfish heart,i'm really proud and happy and all my love for him.

\:D/

now playing

my heart always skips a beat everytime i hear this song.

daftpunk-something about us
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

i dont have any word to say how much i love this song. it kinda hurts, isnt it? the lyrics are so simple but it fits perfectly with something thats been driving me crazy for the last year and half. the craziest thing is even we were apart for several reasons we just found out how to get back together because my feeling for what we had is something different. we were never really a cute and romantic couple but we would come and go. and i never really told my true feeling the way i should, the way this song describes them,we might not be right for each other, we might never work together. I've accepted he's the most important thing I ever had, still I just turn away because I am scared of being left alone again. I refused to say goodbye, but I dont know it's the only way he can be happy is being with me or with any thing else. And it's too painful. To love somebody so much - to have "something between you" - knowing that you have no clue to have so many feelings and being "incompatible".