HAPPY BIRTHDAY INDONESIA

17 August was never more than an independence day for me, which can only be celebrated by people who truly "independent".

Today i went to Jakarta, not to attend the independence ceremonies. i went to Jakarta because i want to see, how independent are we when seen through the eyes of the capital. well, i saw a lot. i see how great our capital is. luxury buildings, shopping centers everywhere, high way filled with expensive cars, the air smells like money. Jakarta is the city of life, of glamorous, of everything you ever wished for.

We are already independent.

Until i saw the dark part of this heaven on earth. i saw black dirty river filled with trash with kids bathe and moms washing clothes and other goods there. for a while i wanted to not believe what i saw. and then i saw a highway guardrail, it filled with laundry. what is this? where is the luxury buildings? where is the city of life? there are two questions that pops into my head, are they dont know what they're doing? Who has done this to them? i sighed. im sure this is only the small portion of Jakarta's dark parts.

then i think, what I want to be a material lift for my writing tonight. the luxury? or the dead part? i dont know i cant decide. both is interesting. both is a problem. i dont know which part is describe the situation of our independence now. i need a help. while thinking, i checked my twitter, then i read something interesting. wow, zooey deschanel, from 500 days of summer/ she&him said, if she could. she wanted to come to Indonesia. suddenly, my feeling turned into a pride. famous artist like her amazed to Indonesia. not only her, but a lot of artist. artist that come from countries that dont have black dirty river love Indonesia. then why can we love Indonesia? social problems in Jakarta, must have happened in other cities from Sabang to Merauke. but if compared with the richness and beauty that we have, all problems will look very small.what we have to do is, not looking for any good or any bad things, all we have to do is love our Indonesia more. if we can love, surely we can keep.

so here we are, independent as we can be, independet as we want to be.

Happy Birthday Indonesia.
i love you

i cried my self to bed after this

the first time i heard about this movie, i definitely think this movie is just like any other local movies. especially when i read the tagline: cinta lama bersemi kembali, and also the poster. are they really cant make something better than this?



until yesterday, my friend said i should watch this movie. she said the story is similar to mine and I was immediately curious. so finally i watched this movie last night and...

i cried my self to bed like all night long. I hope you've watched the movie so I dont need to explain the details. and for you who are already very close with me, I'm sure you must know why this movie was so sad to me. but beside the story, i found a lessons to learn from this movie:

1.forgetting something is a very hard thing to do. in fact, there is nothing in the world can be completely forgotten. but that doesnt mean everything that has happened in the past could live in the present. all the memories have a special place in our heart. but not to regret or even missed. memories were created to find out who we are and why we're here.

2.love depends on how we want to live it. you can live your love with happy days and good things but never learn anything or you live your love by get hurt but as strong as your heart beating. whatever it is the choice is entirely up to us.

so if any of you have some problem with forgetting some one or a choice to live your love, i recommend to watch this movie. and I wish all the options you have chosen is the right choice.


Goodnight. Happy fasting.

HAPPY RAMADHAN Y'ALL

if someone asks about my feeling now, i'll say im very pleased and very sad at the same time. Happy because its Ramadhan again! im sure there is not a single Muslim who doesnt happy about it. Happy that me and my family and Tir still be given the opportunity and health. And also sad because this is the 7th Ramadhan without my dad, and will be the first Idul Fitri without Sis. My sister will move to Japan less than 20 days away. And sad because i just cut my hair, very very short. i dont know how long it will takes to grow it again :( if you have any idea or know something about the fastest way to grow it, please email me.

So hows your first day everyone? i hope we can finish this day well and the rest 29 days. Be sure to always eat vegetables and fruits every saur or buka, and drink a lot of mineral water. Mom says it will keep us healthy and strong during fasting. And to non-muslim friends, help us okay, please dont test our temper or our hunger-instinct by eating in front of us :p

Happy Ramadhan Y'all. Hopefully our ibadah is accepted by Allah. Here's a little present from me and Tir to all of you fasting-people :D

only human

when i have to step forward,part of me doesnt want to leave a trace behind, part of me want to keep it.not because it is very precious to me, but because i dont want any one stepping on it so mine will missing. but in the end.. i know i have to leave it.

T & B at Jogja ( Again )

Welcome to Java's culture center, Jogjakarta.

Why Jogja again? The answer is i dont know. I like the food, but not the weather, i like the people, but not the calo/joki, i like the shopping-atmosphere but not the traffic. So, what makes me came back down here is because i like to be here. I had planned this trip since May, but Tir said he cant be sure whether he can or he can not. So i thought this plan should be postponed until whenever he said so. I was upset and decided to keep my self on silence for a couple days for my disappointing movement to Tir. I thought it wont work, But, as always, Tir is full of surprises. One day he came to me and said: “Lets go”. So here we go.





















Our vacation this time different from our other vacations. Usually we visit natural attractions far from the crowds, but this time, in addition to visiting Borobudur and sendang sono, we also visited the palace, alun-alun, Malioboro, Klintingan Market, see the music festival, the largest shopping center in Jogja, bookstores and most fun is a culinary tour. its like we explore every corner of the city. 4 days seemed so fast because most of the time we spent on the road. Sleep time was very less. My legs hurt. But very pleasant. It's just that we lack documentation. But its okay because our eyes have already recorded everything we saw.

Looking forward to go back to the town really, maybe next years or so. Both of us are planning a vacation to Bali now, wish everything goes well, because we have difficulties with flight bookings.we'll write you soon about our another vacation. SEE YOU!

Thank you for Hilman,Adin, and Dian.

in case you need it:
Bus Bandung Express Bandung-Jogja/Jogja-Bandung : 90000idr
Hotel with AC and private bathroom : 200000idr/night
Motor Rent : 60000idr/day
The Palace : around 5000idr/person
Camera Permission @ The Palace : 1000idr
Borobudur : 17500idr/person
Bukit Menoreh Tour : 50000idr/group

911

maybe this is me being over reacting..

but i'm scared of the fact that i didnt have any one around here

my wedding song

At The Beginning
We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start


And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whether storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you



I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart



In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you