BROTHER

i've been blogging like almost 2 years and i've never write a single thing about the most special guy in my whole life, my brother. His name is Hario Riki Pratama, Riki for short, was born September 5, 1993, with a special need. My brother is an autistic. Down Syndrome to be exact. My mom said, down syndrome is a genetic abnormality on chromosome number. i dont know much about the chromosomes, all i know my brother was born special. there are reasons why i have never mention about him. if you asked me if i embarrassed, im not gonna lie, i was embarrassed once. long long time ago. but if you asked why i was embarrassed, my answer is because im afraid. im afraid of what other people think about my brother. people are very easy to call someone with special need as an "idiot". and that is what i feared the most.

time goes by. the day when my father died, my brother was the only person who did not cry, he said, ..daddy is in my heart now. my father died 2 days before his birthday but my brother was the strongest among us all. and since that day, my brother was the one who always strengthened me, strengthened us all. he always makes sure that my mom safe, and we are safe. my brother was never such a trouble, like most other boys at his age. he wasnt interested in the formal education, he prefers art. most of the time he spent at home. and i think this is God's miracle for all of us, He took my dad so early, but He gave us Riki to always keeps us together and not apart.

today, if you ask me about my brother, i will not embarrass anymore and i will not afraid anymore. im proud to have a brother like him. he keeps the light on in our home. he keeps us stick together as a family, even after i got married. so this is a short story about my autistic brother named Riki, the most special guy in my whole life.

here's some of Riki's drawing

there are still so many of them. soon i will upload all of them, or even make him an album for his great great arts. i think he is a very good artist, even better than me who have studied like almost 3 years in design and art :p Riki has just finished doing Hernia Surgery and is in healing. lets hope Riki get well really really soon :)

xoxo from me and Riki

happiest birthday Aika :)

remember my friend Aika? the pretty one from Philippine? She's having her birthday on July 13. so here is a little sumthing from me to her. i asked tirto to join me but he's too shy to do so. he says hi, cant wait to see you in 4 days. love you doll.

hope you'll love it as much as i love you.

i wish i could teleport

from the place where i am writing now, i could see the blue sky and i could feel the heat touches my skin. and then my though flies far far away to the most perfect place i want to be right now in this sunny summer day. uh, if only traveling is not that expensive :(

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY MUM

last thursday was my mum birthday. which, incidentally happened on the same day as my uncle's birthday. so my big family decided to go on short vacation in town to celebrate their birthday. my grandmother, all my cousins, uncles and aunties were gathered here in Bandung. for me, that was a very rare situation to have all my family here in the town. because except lebaran, we rarely get together like this because most of them are live in other cities and because of their busyness. so, last weekend was special.

this year my mum reached 49 years old. even tho she looks very young and fresh and healthy, i know she is not that young anymore. my mum has become a single parent for almost 7 years. and for that 7 years, she has done amazing things. she raised me, my sister and my brother great. she has successfully led my sister to her dream, going to school in Japan. she has successfully led me to become a wife and a mother to be. she has successfully led my brother to become a healthy and smart and funny kid with an amazing talent of drawing ( you should check out my brother's drawing, its crazy beautiful!). she has successfully not only become a good mother, but also a good friend for all us. well, at least for me.

its a year before her 50. i guess its our turn now to make her happy. to make her life more colorful than before. to make her dreams come true. to give her support that we have got from her all our entire life. thank you mum. not for everything you have gave me, but thank you for being you. for always being my mother no matter what. thank you mum for always forgive me. for always be a home for me. for being the best teacher and the best friend in the world. i love you so much more than everything and limitless. i adore you mom. you're superstar :)

my mum and my uncle

mum's surprise birthday

ps: last monday, i went to my doctor. its good to know that our baby is fine and it is SHE. im so excited. IM HAVING A DAUGHTER! wish me and the baby best of luck and a good health ya!

The Return Of My Sister

as i said before, my overseas sister finally came home last month. she brought a lot of stuff, a lot of stories ( that i must listen ) and a lot of photos ( that i must see ). im happy to be home again with her. not gonna lie to you, i miss her so much. my sister and i are not like the other sisters. if you hear the word "sisters", you would think about 2 girls with a lot of in common. but my sister and i, dont even think about it. we spend most of the time with fighting. she's Japanese minded and me, i adore American. thats why we speak very different language about coolness, except Britney Spears. but speaking about language, my sister and i have our own language that both of us are the only creature who understand it. so gather up again with her means, i could use that language again :p so here's some photos about her coming home. my mom and my brother both very happy welcoming her. me too of course, but writing sweet things like this about her is only bullshiting, because no longer from now, we will fighting again and start cat calling at each other again...just like the old times! but i guess that is what sisters all about, to make everything stays still like the old times :)

shalom every one, good afternoon :) i hope you guys have a great day today.

so, happy birthday to my father. his bday is on 2oth. im wishing you very great place there on heaven. i miss you and i love you endlessly.

i just woke up. i was watching Sex and the City 2 and i fell a sleep. its hard for me not to fall a sleep when im watching dvd now. weird. i happened to always love watching, any time any where, but now, duh its the hardest thing to do. im working on my second project at campus. its a public service ads about safety riding. i choose texting while driving as my focus area. its a very interesting topic. its about the un-explanationable needs to always checking our phone. i know the feeling so well, even tho im not driving. so its like making an ads for my own self. hahaha so weirddddd x)

i want sushi so bad. dont know why. but raw fish is an issue for me now. since im not allowed to eat anything raw or under cook. but i want it so very very bad. i am consulting with my nurse friend now, i hope she brings me a very good news about it. me wantey sushiiiiiii :)

so i'll write you later. stay tuned :)

Twenty and One

three days ago was my birthday and today is Tirto's. we've turned 21. we're allowed to drink and drunk now. aren't we?

happy birthday to me, yeay! this is the best birthday ever so far. all thanks goes to all my lovely family, Tirto and friends. so very thank you once again. well, my bday is on 15th and today is Tir's. im a bit late for mine but yeah i guess that wouldnt hurt much. on my birthday, i was like very very enjoying my day, and yeah rocking the day of course. it well spent. i love birthdays, always do. my favorite day from the whole year is my birthday. why? because on my birthday, facebook will report to all of my friend's home page that 15 march is my birthday. through out the day, every one will mouth "happy birthday" and smile to me. i enjoyed it very much. when i was 17, i always wondered what it feels to be 20 and plus. will i dress like my aunty, have a long hair, red lipstick and high heels? duh. none of my guesses were right. i assumed that 20 and plus was automatically "grown up", something like dress like an adult, long red hair, lipstick, high heels, club, smoking, working and dating a working man, but now im 21 and i feel much more than that. i feel grown up in a very different way. it was totally my day. you should see the bday card my friend gave me. im so freakin lovin that! and yeah they gave me a book and cake and couple of candles. im so extra excited about being 21 now, cause im just having awesomeness days with all my love ones. totally rocking each and every day..

i'll show you some photos and video from my day. simply click HERE for full view.

before i leave, what is birthday without surprise? well, this year i'll giving you all a surprise. a very big surprise. BUT....... i can not tell you now. because of this and that reasons, i have to postpone my surprise for you until next month. but dont you worry because its a promise. duhhhh its almost slip here in my mouth. im dying to give it away now but once again, lets just hold for a moment,shall we? so i'll see you around maybe when my surprise its ready or even sooner.

xoxo-es

ps: a bear hug to each of every one of you in the photographs, Tirto, Ghessy, Jani, Juon, Dita, Mya, Fikong, Uni, Dinda, Charm and also Abe, Aika ( so far from the eyes, so close to the heart ya!) and Ririt, cepet sembuhhhh yaaaa. i love you guys 10000000x and more.