FLASH BACK

i just look around my old photos,and suddenly i missed them all.

you know how a memory can represent many things? memory is a book. for me, memory is a bible, a real evidence for something we've ever had or even still we have now. memory is a good lesson that we must keep it going and both a bitter experience that we must fix. but the main thing, memory is the recording of our hearts and minds. no matter how bad it is, we cant refuse to have it. we cant deny it. memory can help us remember the past. remembering that we once had something that might make us laugh or even cry. helps us to remember that we've done something useful take make us just like today. memory is our identity, memory is a part of our lives. it connects everything. memory is something real and absolute. not something we have forgotten or something we have to hide.

i have a lot of memory. memories about everything i've ever felt. some of them recorded in a photographs. and some only a small piece of my mind that always comes back when i was thinking about nothing. sometimes i feel sad when i remembered it, but then i really feel so lucky to have it. there's no point in regretting all that had happened. and it isn't useful to destroy existing memories.its like when i remembered about my ex and his behavior to me,it felt like i would never forgive him for the rest of my life, but then i thought, from all of the things i can remember about him, there are a good lessons to learn.so why i should regret it? now each of us have a new life which i believe better than before, and regretted it will only ruined everything,right? and then, when i used to have a very very very best friend, and we fight and decided not to be friends anymore. i looked again to the picture with her and compare the current situation, i feel so stupid. i mean why does this happen? today should be better than yesterday,right? this is what memory is for, helped me to realize something more important than a cat fight or something. we were friends back there.

that's why i absolutely adored the sense of a memory. it reminding and awakening. and i will do anything to keep my memories alive.