Tuesday, March 30, 2010

aku kangen jalan-jalan!

i know. i need an emergency get away.

like seriously,i need to go somewhere.anywhere.a place far from the town,a place where no one knew me, a place where there are no assignments, and other responsibilities. somewhere like that.

where? there are a million places on my list to go. but beach would be very lovely. im thinking about BALI. why? because its been a very long long long time since the last time i kissed Bali. i imagined myself, sitting on the beach,reading a book, with a crash of waves as a backsound. since im not a water sport believer, i prefer not to swim.Geez, i want Bali like so much! but i have this strange thing, my relationship with water not so good, i mean i know it sounds creepy like urban legend stuff, but its true, everytime i hit the water, bad luck comes over me. like one time, when my boyfriend and i came to the lake around Ciwidey, we broke up. believe it or not, i have this faith, that went to places with water is suicide. pit stop.
so,my second option goes to Jogjakarta.Jogja again? Well,yes yes yes my friends.i love Jogja. everything about Jogja smells like love for me. haha am i too much? no, i have my own reasons: 1. Jogja is quite cheap vacation, 2. Jogja is shopping paradise, 3.I love the food! 4.Friendly place and 5.It's very beautiful and memorable for me. every time im thinking about Jogja, its like i could hear their calling my name like come over here again come over here again hahahaha silly me.

so what do you think? or somewhere like Karimun Jawa or Pulau Pramuka will be so much fun? i heard they have a very fantastic beach. Or maybe Cibodas. Have you heard about it? its my favorite place after Jogja. hmm im very confused. i want it all.
hahaha :)

where ever it will be, the point is, i need go to somewhere. i need my quality time. i need to break through this boring chain. After mid test, i'll be out there!

rock on!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

i know back there you love two person, why cant you love one?

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes..., hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.

— Bob Marley

Friday, March 26, 2010


i lost my will to write.

maybe because i'm bored, or maybe because there is no topic that i wanted to write. my life isnt so great lately so thats it. no storries. BUT,few days ago when i upload my personal photography photos to my facebook,and some people like it, i decided to make a tumblr account. sounds so mainstream huh? yeah whatever, to survive we need to follow the civilization right? so here it comes my tumblr account :



why tumblr?because as i said earlier, i lost will to write,so i tried to express my feelings through pictures, photos, videos, and quotes. tho im still a new bee, it will be very lovely if you could come and check it out.

and one thing, i've just updated my super cool list.feel free to check them out too, i bet you will love it!


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

from me to you

dear dad,
im so sorry for my late birthday letter. Well,happy birthday again by the way. I'm wishing you a very perfect place up there. So how are you today? Hope you're alright and still watching me from our sky. Hows our home looks like from up there? Very pretty,huh? Oh Dad, please take me with you..

dear dad,
i had turned 20. Just to be honest to you, this isn't a birthday i'm looking forward to. Please don't tell anyone,esp Mom. Because i don't want them to know that i'm so afraid. I'm afraid of what i would find as my birthday's gift. I'm so afraid that whatever life brings me this year might just break my heart again. you know i've been in a really tough times before and i've survived,but Daddy, i don't think i can handle another heart attack anymore.. i can't afford to get hurt anymore. Please Dad, will you come home for me? Please..

dear dad,
did you know what i was going through? did you feel it? I need you so bad Dad,i felt so alone..

dear dad,
i know you will never go back to home again. but i still hope that one day you'll be here again. i love you dad, we love you, your lady venus and three shooting stars. 6 years wont change anything Dad..i love you,as always.

your love,

Sunday, March 21, 2010

20 years from now

well i used to know a stranger..

he had a headbands on his head.he was such a trip.he brought me a blue sky.he was always there.and i love him.never change.he took me to the beach.and we learned to speak.time has gone by.such a long long road to go.all we did was break and freak it.but we had all the lovers ever wanted.well im bad sometimes,but so he did.and we said okay.now our world was bright.and we live on the grass in the lake down in the valley.and we work out on father's farm.climb up our mountain.and everything is fine.you'll still here,you said.and so i will.and we're still here.


after waiting impatiently for almost 2 months,finally yesterday, march 20,2010,taa-raaaaaa: Camera Obscura, my favorite life-time band, performed here! It was kinda magical for me. i mean i love them since i was 15 and i never imagine that i could see them eyes on eyes, here in my hometown!


Tracyanne looks very sexy with her guitar last night.and so did with Lindsay, the way she played the keyboard is one of a kind.i totally forgot how many songs they sing, but My Maudlin Career was the opening song for the show last night. i had thought that they would sing songs from my maudlin career album because it was their latest album, but they're only sang a couple songs like my maudlin career, honey in the sun, james, and french navy. they're also sang Come Back Margaret, Tears For Affairs, Razzle Dazzle Rose and view songs i cant remember each per each. Too bad they didnt put Swans and Lets Go Bowling on their playlist, but over all, they were totally GREAAAAT!! i love them!

So lets called last night was a huge bite. it was the perfect ending for this magically week. started with my best bday, moving on to tirto's bday, and my dad's bday, and finally camera obscura made my week! i love it, i love march as always but this time i love it more and more and more!i couldnt be happier again!

And now.. monday is one blink away.Time for wake up and go back to my monotonous life.im so ready at first, but rain, you know they're pouring in NON STOP!i hate it. i used to love it, but this is too much for me. i miss being touched by the nice warm sun. Rain today is a mood killer! i hope this very very very long rainy season will end as soon as possible. Amin!

But for now, its rain outside, im gonna crab some sleep..xxx

Thursday, March 18, 2010


three days after me. he has turned 20, too.

as always, he never really excited about his birthday. and me, super excited even more than my own birthday. x)

at first, i was very confused when deciding to buy the right gift for him. i wanted it to be special, i mean, more special. i wanted to give something that he likes. i wanted to give something that he really good at, like really useful. i wanted to give something that he loves. so, after googling, searching, asking, spying, i decided to give him, an acoustic electric guitar. what an idea!

it took three months to prepare everything. why guitar? because ever since i knew him, he was into music like so much. the way he played guitar, make me feel like fall in love again and again.plus, days ago, he told me that his brother will give him an amplifier for his birthday. so i guess, guitar and amplifier will be a very good match. picking guitar was really a social suicide. i dont have any clue about guitar's thingy. so, i asked his friend, Handy and Fikong to help me out, and also his brother too. i knew some of mind about guitar but i know im not afford to buy it :( and it was an electric guitar not an acoustic electric. im totally lost and almost gave up,started to look for second option. but at the end of the time, my friend, Ririt, gave me a very beautiful news. i finally found the right one!

i really wanted his 20th bday to be 'something' like super special.so i prepared a surprise party for him. i bought a cake with 2 and 0 red candles, i wrapped the guitar with red ribbon too. thanks to my dear friend Ghessy to help me tooking care of this tiny but 'headache' stuff. i gave the cake and the guitar right when the time hits 12am while he was at the studio and i 'supposed' to be at Jani's, doing my assignment. he wasnt look shock or something and thats just under my expected, but i knew that he was so happy!

and......i felt like a happiest girl alive. when i looked at his face starring at his new guitar and smile at me. even without a word i just knew that he loved it, like he wouldn't let go of it even when he sleeps! super cute! oh i wish i had some photo to show :( i'll post it as soon as i get it okay!

so once again, happy birthday Tirto.
im wishing all the best for you and for us.
i love you :)

Sunday, March 14, 2010


my favorite day ever is march 15.its my birthday!and today, im turning 20.yes, finally i have 2 in my two digits of ages.how cool is that? finally i can get off from my teen-title, now i have -TY, i mean something like twen-ty, not nine-teen anymore. haha x)

so far,i have a very greaaat birthday.my boyfriend, he was the first one to say happy birthday and gave my bday hugs and thousand of kisses!i know right!its like i have the best boyfriend ever!he lit the candle last night and gave me a beautiful surprises!i couldnt ask for more! he knew that i always wanted to have a pet in my room, like a bed mates or something, but pitty me, i was always too lazy to feed them or clean up their things,sooooooooooo he gave me this, my own aquarium plus the fishes, and thanks for the technology and electricity, i dont have to take care of them!i love it!


i always have an emotional feeling with flower. the other day, tirto said he wont give me any flower because he did it last year, and im begging my self for it but he said no like no way.but last night, he gave one! the white one! and im melting.

best part is my mom,she was here.i got a lots bday wishes from my family, my friends, from followers and fb's mates. im happy! so happy! its like i dont need any bday gift. its perfect!


Thursday, March 11, 2010


tomorrow, me and ghessy will make cupcakes.since our vacation plans to Cirebon canceled, we decided to kill our boring weekend with making cupcakes and do a little shopping at the end. i know right, girls will be girls just like boys did. Okay, back to the topic, this time, we will make chocolate cupcakes. so here's a thing or two we need to make our recipe :

125 g margarine
80 ml of liquid milk
2 eggs
150 g sugar
200 g flour
30 g cocoa powder
baking soda
baking powder

How to make:
1.melt the butter with milk. until it liquids. remember dont let it boil, and then lift.
2.beat eggs and sugar until sugar dissolves and then input the flour, cocoa powder, baking powder, and baking soda. mix well.
3.input the melted margarine. mix well.
4.put the dough into cupcakes's mold, steamed about 20 minutes.
5.lift and serve

i wish for a super luck for us tomorrow because, to be honest,this is my first time making such thing. i'll let you know as soon as our cupcakes ready to serve.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

no one belongs here more than you

i want your face to be the first thing i saw when i woke up in the morning. Then enjoy the sunshine and show how much how lucky we are when we were together. Having a cup of hot tea, as you loved it, and talking about nothing but you and me and our day. I love when you touched my cheek and said 'you looked so cute this morning". And the topic about 'where are we going' will always be my favorite. "take me anywhere with you.."

where ever you take me, i always feel so happy. there is no place i would ratter be than here by your side. when im with you, i can share my whole life. you were good at making me cry and laugh in the same time. i love you like seriously. its nice to having you here with me all day long, all of the time.

so when the sun hits the horizon, i began to pray. for a lifetime to be with you. hand to hand. because there is no one better than you for me. you fit perfectly to my bones. please take me with you where ever you go. still,hand to hand. please dont break my heart. because my heart might be the stronger est heart when it comes to love you, but could be the weakest when you're leave.


Friday, March 5, 2010

chamber of secret


in this world,no matter how far an area we can reach,we just need a little space to breath with our own lung, to think with our own brain, to see with our own eyes and to talk with our own mouth, without others intervene.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


early this morning,a nice email came up from Louise Brown from travelpod informed me that my blog, was elected to be blog of the day February 22 edition. tho the notice was late,i'm so happy to know about that. here's the link you can check what they said about my blog :


i love when they said,my english is one of the kind.like i seriously mean it.english was my number one interest. and the part when they said about my trip to Jogja and the photo series were raw of emotions, im so hunger to do more trip and writing, more and more and more.
i know my ability to write is still very far from good, but knowing that someone out there was reading and consider every word that i wrote is a very great feeling.

im so happy for me, x